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[09|27|05] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | oh gosh depressing ] R.I.P. Scooter Pie<333 Always in Our Hearts, We Love you and miss you. !!! @#$% [12]

[09|25|05] [ mood | groggy ] haha i feel so bad cause i like never update anymore im so sorry guys, im just SO busy!!! it kind of sucks, but i promise i willdo it more often now so last night me and marly got completely shit faced haha. cause my parents went out and then we walked up to dairy queen or whatever and corey was there :) and pat was there for marly.:) i had a great time..ill update more later i love you all<333 !!! @#$% [2]

[09|11|05] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | my hump- black eyed peas ] hey everyone so wowww. school started. so depressing. i hate it so much haha. it blowssss and i hardly get to see corey. which is really sad. oh yeah i forgot to tell you guys. things with him are good now, like we're not going out but we're still together and i hung out with him for the whole weekend which was good. and i was reallyyy happy but i see corey only like twice a day. but i guess it's better than nothing. i already changed one of my classes and it's only been two days haha im sucha fag. it was really gay though cause like NO ONE was in it. yeah but anyway so this is my FUN FILLED WEEKEND for you all on friday i had a game after school against south plainfield in field hockey and we won 1-0:) with my goal. which is really happy. then i hung out with corey and his friend, brett. it was alright, i was so tired though, but i was happy cause i saw him then on saturday, we had another game. it was the most amazing game EVER. so it was against hillsborough. and we were down 1-0 in the begining. then we were tied 1-1, then they got anotehr goal and it was 2-1, then we got another goal and it was 2-2 and so on. but then it was 3-3. and my sister (the goalie for our team) got yellow carded! so she couldn't play for 20 minutes. which was a big ut oh cause we didnt have another goalie to play. SO. if there was no one the game couldn't go on, and i did not want that to happen so i volunteered to be goalie which i have NEVER played in my whole entire life and i was the most terrified person in the whole entire world. it was nuts so the game ended at 3-3 and finally my sister came back into the game. so we had to go into overtime!! 5 minutes 7v7. most intense 5 minutes of my life. but AHHH YAYY!! we scored!! so we won. so we're undefeated! which is so exciting. well even if it only is two games. those were two of our biggest rivals then when i got home from my game i went to the movies with corey and this boy named justin kramer who drove us there. and it was just so much fun. cause i got to be with him for the whole night. and then we stopped a couple places on the way home and me and corey were in the back seat and he was laying down and i was laying on top of him and we were just laying there and it was just so amazinggg. like i like him so much and it was just so lovely:) haha okaayyy haha that was a very long entry. but it makes up for the 6 days that i haven't updated I LOVE YOU ALL<3333333333 !!! @#$% [8]

[09|05|05] [ mood | happy ] [ music | HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEe ] ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYY!!!!!! :)   :)   :)   :)   :)   :)   :)   :)   :)   :) I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLL<3 !!! @#$% [19]

[09|02|05] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | hump- black eyed pease ] woww long time no talkk bad juliaaaa. sorry guys, i've been soo busyy its nuts. ugh i have a dilemma. im so depressed! so that kid corey that i've been talking about we've been like "together" but not going out if you know what i mean. and so the last like two nights we were supposed to hang out but he ditched me. and he said that he just had to stay home. but then i figured out that one of the nights he hung out with this girl claire that i HATE. and i was like did you guys hookup? and he was like no wayy! and then i find out that they did. and like its not that im SO upset just over the hookup thing. its just that he lied to me about it so me and marly walked up to the dairy queen by my house today and he was up there so marly stayed with coreys friend and me and corey went on a walk so i could talk to him. and i was like blabla. i just want you to tell me and he was like i was drunk. and im not saying you dont do stupid stuff when you're drunk because i've had my part with stupid things when i was drunk. but you still know slightly what you're doing. you're not TOTALLY out of it, you have a slight idea of what you're doing, so i hate it when people use that as an excuse. and then i was like i really can't deal with this anymore. because it's happened a lot of times before. wlel not ALOT but he's lied. and it was so hard to talk to him. i almost started crying. well i kinda did when i was telling him that i can't deal with this. and then he was like julia im so sorry, it was a mistake blablabla. and then he gave me a hug and started kissing me and he was like give me a hug and i couldnt and he was like im not letting go until you give me a hug. so i did. and i just hate it that guys think that sorry can cure EVERYTHING. but its really sad because i just CANT get over him . i just CANT do it. so at the end he was like im so sorry, i know i made a mistake and when he was giving me a hug marly was behind me and he was like oh shit like he did something wrong. and its just i REALLY dont know what to do. marly was saying that she thinks hes good for me and she can tell that he lieks me a lot and that i like him a lot. but its so hard when this keeps happening and so hard to deal with all this. cause hes always like im gonna change. and i keep telling myself im gonna get over him but its just SO hard. what do i dooooooo :( advice please? !!! @#$% [13]

[08|15|05] [ mood | blah ] [ music | rihannaaa ] hey you guys listen im SOO sorry. i've been reallyyy gay lately haha field hockey started today and it's gonna be everyday until school starts from 8-11 am and 4-8 pm so i dont know how well im gonnna be with updating and commenting ill do my best but PLEASE dont delete me but if you do ill def. understand i love you all<3 !!! @#$% [16]

piicctuuurresss :) [08|13|05] [ mood | sore ] [ music | phone ] ( i've got pictures for all off youu from ocean city :) ) !!! @#$% [29]

[08|11|05] [ mood | sad ] sorry it's been a while there's just been soo much going on these past few days and i've been realllyy busy i might not be able to update like everry day now because a lot of stuff has been happening the past tuesday my dad got a hip replacement he was supposed to get out of the hospital yesterday but all these things started going wrong. like his blood pressure went down everytime he tried to walk. so he still hasnt come home yet. they say hopefully it will be by tomorrow but they're still not sure. it's really sad seeing him like this. like the first time i went to see him in the hospital i started crying really hard because it's so upsetting. i hate seeing it. i HATE IT SO MUCH. gosh i just want it to stop. im so used to my dad being this huge big powerful character that can do anything he wants whenever he wants and seeing him in the hospital bed, not being able to do anything, helpless and weak, just is so hard for me to see i miss him the way he used to be i want him to go back to normal. i want my dad back :( !!! @#$% [20]

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