julia ♥

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 23:27:51 GMT

R.I.P. Scooter Pie<333
Always in Our Hearts, We Love you and miss you.

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 15:54:45 GMT

haha i feel so bad cause i like never update anymore

im so sorry guys, im just SO busy!!! it kind of sucks, but i promise i willdo it more often now

so last night me and marly got completely shit faced haha. cause my parents went out

and then we walked up to dairy queen or whatever and corey was there :) and pat was there for marly.:)

i had a great time..ill update more later

i love you all<333

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 21:33:04 GMT

hey everyone

so wowww. school started. so depressing. i hate it so much haha. it blowssss

and i hardly get to see corey. which is really sad. oh yeah i forgot to tell you guys. things with him are good now, like we're not going out but we're still together and i hung out with him for the whole weekend which was good. and i was reallyyy happy

but i see corey only like twice a day. but i guess it's better than nothing.

i already changed one of my classes and it's only been two days haha im sucha fag. it was really gay though cause like NO ONE was in it. yeah but anyway

so this is my FUN FILLED WEEKEND for you all

on friday i had a game after school against south plainfield in field hockey and we won 1-0:) with my goal. which is really happy. then i hung out with corey and his friend, brett. it was alright, i was so tired though, but i was happy cause i saw him

then on saturday, we had another game. it was the most amazing game EVER. so it was against hillsborough. and we were down 1-0 in the begining. then we were tied 1-1, then they got anotehr goal and it was 2-1, then we got another goal and it was 2-2 and so on. but then it was 3-3. and my sister (the goalie for our team) got yellow carded! so she couldn't play for 20 minutes. which was a big ut oh cause we didnt have another goalie to play. SO. if there was no one the game couldn't go on, and i did not want that to happen so i volunteered to be goalie which i have NEVER played in my whole entire life and i was the most terrified person in the whole entire world. it was nuts

so the game ended at 3-3 and finally my sister came back into the game. so we had to go into overtime!! 5 minutes 7v7. most intense 5 minutes of my life. but AHHH YAYY!! we scored!! so we won. so we're undefeated! which is so exciting. well even if it only is two games. those were two of our biggest rivals

then when i got home from my game i went to the movies with corey and this boy named justin kramer who drove us there. and it was just so much fun. cause i got to be with him for the whole night. and then we stopped a couple places on the way home and me and corey were in the back seat and he was laying down and i was laying on top of him and we were just laying there and it was just so amazinggg. like i like him so much and it was just so lovely:) haha

okaayyy haha that was a very long entry. but it makes up for the 6 days that i haven't updated

I LOVE YOU ALL<3333333333

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 14:38:42 GMT

ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYY!!!!!!

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLL<3

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 22:53:58 GMT

woww long time no talkk

bad juliaaaa. sorry guys, i've been soo busyy its nuts.

ugh i have a dilemma. im so depressed!

so that kid corey that i've been talking about

we've been like "together" but not going out if you know what i mean. and so the last like two nights we were supposed to hang out but he ditched me. and he said that he just had to stay home. but then i figured out that one of the nights he hung out with this girl claire that i HATE. and i was like did you guys hookup? and he was like no wayy! and then i find out that they did. and like its not that im SO upset just over the hookup thing. its just that he lied to me about it

so me and marly walked up to the dairy queen by my house today and he was up there so marly stayed with coreys friend and me and corey went on a walk so i could talk to him. and i was like blabla. i just want you to tell me and he was like i was drunk. and im not saying you dont do stupid stuff when you're drunk because i've had my part with stupid things when i was drunk. but you still know slightly what you're doing. you're not TOTALLY out of it, you have a slight idea of what you're doing, so i hate it when people use that as an excuse. and then i was like i really can't deal with this anymore. because it's happened a lot of times before. wlel not ALOT but he's lied. and it was so hard to talk to him. i almost started crying. well i kinda did when i was telling him that i can't deal with this. and then he was like julia im so sorry, it was a mistake blablabla. and then he gave me a hug and started kissing me and he was like give me a hug and i couldnt and he was like im not letting go until you give me a hug. so i did. and i just hate it that guys think that sorry can cure EVERYTHING.

but its really sad because i just CANT get over him . i just CANT do it. so at the end he was like im so sorry, i know i made a mistake and when he was giving me a hug marly was behind me and he was like oh shit like he did something wrong. and its just i REALLY dont know what to do.

marly was saying that she thinks hes good for me and she can tell that he lieks me a lot and that i like him a lot. but its so hard when this keeps happening and so hard to deal with all this. cause hes always like im gonna change. and i keep telling myself im gonna get over him but its just SO hard.

what do i dooooooo :( advice please?

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 01:30:04 GMT

hey you guys

listen im SOO sorry.

i've been reallyyy gay lately haha

field hockey started today and it's gonna be everyday until school starts from 8-11 am and 4-8 pm

so i dont know how well im gonnna be with updating and commenting

ill do my best but PLEASE dont delete me

but if you do ill def. understand

i love you all<3

piicctuuurresss :)

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 17:11:07 GMT

me and marly

marly and nick

me and marly

for more look at my webshots

love you all<3

and thanks for all of you guys that were so nice about my dad.

he just got home yesterday and he's doing a little better.

but thankss soo much<3

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 04:23:49 GMT

sorry it's been a while

there's just been soo much going on these past few days and i've been realllyy busy

i might not be able to update like everry day now because a lot of stuff has been happening

the past tuesday my dad got a hip replacement

he was supposed to get out of the hospital yesterday but all these things started going wrong. like his blood pressure went down everytime he tried to walk.

so he still hasnt come home yet. they say hopefully it will be by tomorrow but they're still not sure.

it's really sad seeing him like this.

like the first time i went to see him in the hospital i started crying really hard because it's so upsetting. i hate seeing it. i HATE IT SO MUCH. gosh i just want it to stop.

im so used to my dad being this huge big powerful character that can do anything he wants whenever he wants

and seeing him in the hospital bed, not being able to do anything, helpless and weak, just is so hard for me to see

i miss him the way he used to be

i want him to go back to normal. i want my dad back

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 14:58:33 GMT

so guysss..i love you butttttttttttttt

im going to the beach with marly:):)

sooo dont cuttt mee please :) and comment to make me happy when i come back

i love you allllllllllllllllll

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 02:27:00 GMT

last night was not so great...

i went to marly's house at around 3 ish

i was supposed to be there at 2 but me and my mom got into this MAASSSIIVVEE fight in the car and she started crying hysterically and everything and i wouldn't have been surprised if we got into a car accident

we've been fighting so much lately and it's really depressing..all of my really close friends are like ohhh i tell my mom everything..but i think about it and if i did she'd probably kill me with a machetti.

so we got to marly's and this kid named bennett came over. and then we decided to go back to his place. and i started drinking

and i think i drank too much...i was really drunk. and by really i dont mean like tipsy, walking all over the place, i mean like throwing up when i get back to marly's house and acting like a complete idiot by unbuttoning my pants in the middle of the street and saying hi to all the mexicans.

i don't really remember much...but all i remember is how fucking happy i am to have a best friend.

like seriously, it didn't occur to me how fucking lost i would be without this girl.

she pulled my hair back for me when i was over the toilet, she covered for me, she made me mac and cheese, she told me that i was annoying to make me shut up.

i was soo shitfaced and hardly remember anything but i do remember how fucking happy i am to have this girl, she's amazing and idk what the hell i would do without her..

so along with my MASSIVE hangover this morning, i pretty much slept the hole day then i went to the movies with my sister and her friend tonight and we saw wedding crashers

TOTALLYY recommend it to all of you that haven't seen it, it was sooo funny!! i was like cracking up for the whole time!

ughh i have to go to sleep soon cause im acolyting for church tomorrow.. bLAHHHH

loveeeeeeeeeeee you all!

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 22:44:37 GMT

today was a lotttt of fun :)

so last night i stayed over one of my good friend's houses - leanna
we had fun and played dress up haha. pictures later on:)

and this morning we woke up and then leanna came over
and we went to this boy coreys house(the boy i talked about in my last entry)

it was a lot of fun:) we just hung out and leanna was with one of coreys friends so it was all good

i just have so much fun when im with him and i can't stop smiling now cause im so happy:)

haha im so gangstaaaaa

leanna<3

me and corey

haha me and corey and the dog on top of us

<3333333333333333333333333

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 20:46:15 GMT

im so tired:(

last night i got to bed around 2 in the morning cause i was on the phone
i had to sleep on the couch in the family room cause of my new dog

his name is bailey:) he's 12 weeks old:)

yeah so then i wake up to him falling off the couch around 6 in the morning and i was so upset and sooo freakingg tired
ughh i just wanted to dieee, so i put him in the kitchen and end up sleeping on the kitchen floor for 30 minutes

then my mom woke up so i slept in my room until like 10 ish

it's one of my best friends birthday todayyyyyyyyyyyyy:):)
so i took her out to lunch and took her to get our nails done and everything

now im gonna hang out with this boyy

okay so this is really confusing..and i really dont know what to do

theres this kid that ive been hanging out with, weve been off and on for like the past two years and now this summer we've been like holding hands when we're together and like kissing. but i don't wanna be like what are we? cause i dont want to be too straight forward. but it feels like i can just be myself around him and i havent felt that in a really long time. and i just wanna be with him. but its so confusing and i dont know what to do:(:(

any advice?

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 21:52:31 GMT

new journal=]

made by only the best person EVERRRRRR marly kosss

i need friends

add me?

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 00:00:40 GMT